As 2010 comes to an end...

Love that never dies

I took this photo in Galway, Ireland, last April, during some wonderful holidays I was able to take on my own.

The whole trip meant a lot to me, cause I'd always wanted to know that country and cause it kind of meant meeting mom in a different way. Mom taught me to speak English, and I was extremely happy to be in an English-speaking country.

As I was walking along the streets of Galway - which I found to be a lovely city - I experienced a great peace of mind, and could discover something that would help me deal with my mom's death in a better way. I was there in Ireland, on my own, seeing wonderful landscapes and thinking of the people I love, as I thought of "what my friends would be saying right now if they were here with me". And I felt they were there with me, though they were, in fact, quite faraway. So I thought: "if they're faraway and, still, they are here, then mom, who's also faraway, can also be here". And she was! And that's how I realized she'd never left. And never would she!

Maybe these are kind of rational thoughts, but I can tell you, this time, they come from the core of my soul. I feel lucky to have been able to deal with such difficult loss in so many different ways throughout these last years. What people say is true: it's just a matter of time... and it takes a great deal of "work" to walk along a tough and yet rewarding path, where there's plenty of time to cry, to suffer, to feel empty and, in the end, as if it happened magically, there comes peace. That's the sort of peace you feel when you're sure to have been doing the best thing, to have been trying hard to let pain go and to treat yourself the way you deserve to be treated: with love. This is the love that comes straight from your heart; love and pride have helped me make the most important decision ever: to enjoy life, to take things as they come, to be present, here and now.

And, after this awesome trip I've recently done to Ireland, I know that no matter where I go, no matter what I do and no matter who I'm with, the love of those you are and who are not here anymore will remain with me forever, a never-ending force to lighten my path, my thoughts, my heart and soul.

Peace and love :)

Best wishes for the new year!

Every day's like a battle fought and, luckily, won :)

The more I live, the more I learn - or the more I am conscious of the fact that I have to keep on learning.

Once you make your dicision to move forwards, it's both a rewarding and a tough battle to deal with everyday. Remaining optimistic is the best thing you can do. Sometimes it's pretty difficult, for pain and anger will always be struggling forces inside you. But, after the storm, there comes the sun and the light. And when you get to feel this awesome peace inside, you realize the journey's been worthy... Peace and happiness will surely not last for a long while, but the good thing is: they are attainable and fulfilling...

Being present...

I've recently discovered what "being present" is all about... Life helps us improve and take the best out of ourselves, as long as we're determined to make an evolution. I'm learning all the time, as I relate to people, defend my rights, fight for what I consider the best for my job, my mates, my friends and myself.
If you're a good person, then you're bound to meet good people. But that's not necessarily the case all the time. Even those who are cruel and tricky can help you learn something, as you behave and address to them the best way you can, dealing with as many difficult situations as you may find every single day!
Now I'm off! To my tai chi class :)

About this blog...

I've created this blog with the idea of sharing some piece of writing I've been working on for more than three years now (after my mom's death), though I'd like to keep on working on it a bit more before I publish it here or maybe somewhere else...
The main idea of this blog is to share my point of view regarding life experiences and how they can help us improve our capability of transforming what we are faced with everyday into some positive creation of our own. It's all about taking a look at life as an enriching learning process...